Today has been good.
I got out of bed. I showered. I got dressed up.
I was productive. I had coffee. I filed papers.
I socialized—flourishing in the limelight.
…I made a mistake.
Today has not been good.
The shower was so hot it scorched my skin.
When I was getting coffee, I almost hit another car.
While I was socializing, I crossed boundaries that I knew were there but didn’t care about in the moment.
Today has been manic.
I cried hysterically when I put on my ex’s favorite shirt. I didn’t stop until I was ordering my drink.
My productivity consisted of using up old art supplies by tie dying my bathroom towels at 2:30 in the morning.
I think I pushed away my best friend.
Today, I took my medicine. But today, it didn’t help.
MANIAC
Big sigh and a deep breath. These moments are so hard. Memories aren’t always entertaining and fun. I’m holding you up from afar.
I appreciate you, Pam. <3 I'm lucky--in the sense that this was not today. I just thought I'd publish a bit more poetry to boost that particular page up. 🙂